30 days later...

Yes, we can do it! If we really want it. How bad do you wan this? I always said: "I want it really bad" but I feel didn't do my best to achieve results. Not until recently. I have got new tools and a new mindset and I think, that's why I have been losing. I'm committed and that's the most important part of any battle.

So, as of today; November 1st, 2011 I have lost 14lbs and I want to keep on going. It's all about control and decisions. I'm still having an occasionally "cheating meal" but I get right back on track the next.

Temptations are everywhere but I'm able to overcome them with focus. I pray to God to give me strength that I need to reach my first goal. If I stay focused like I am now, I know I will reach it in a near future.

Another 30 days to go on my low carb plan and I am excited about it. I just need to take one day at a time, one step at a time and one victory at a time. Slowly but surely, I will get there and you can too. There is no secret, just hard work and judgement calls on your part when comes to foods. Planning has helped me a lot. I intend to keep the same things for this next 30 days. I will add some exercise to my routine. Small, not too hardcore; 30 minutes 3/x week. I will see how this will impact the weight loss. Thanks for the support! We all need it. ~hugs~

Week #3 - still going

I only lost 1lbs this past week. I've been sick for 5 days with an ear infection, so I had to change my low carb eating in order to accommodate the antibiotics and othe medicines.

I've be drinking more fluids like hot tea and lots of water. My boyfriend cooked most days, so I tried to cut as much carbs I could but I ended eating much more than I was last week.

I'm getting better. I'm not eating every 3 hours, coz sometimes I'm tired and I sleep for hours. Today, was a better day. I'm hoping to have the eating on schedule. It's great to have loss and I hope this week will be a great one, even with the Halloween weekend coming up.

Week #2 - YaY!

It is the second week of my return to weight loss journey. It was tougher than the first week but I still manage to lose another 3.5 lbs. YaY!
It's all a matter of control and making good judgement calls. On Saturday, I even had 3 small slices of vegetarian wheat pizza and an spinach empanada. But at dinner I ate a salad with some protein, and a glass of wine. That was my splurge day, but I was back on track the next day!
That's what will have to do for the rest of my life. Take control of my emotions and my eating. I can still have one or two out of plan meals but I need to stay focused.
I'm feeling much more in control than when I was back in April. It's a change of life style and I know I can do it.

Keeping the eye on the goal is key.

One of the good benefits of just losing 11lbs is my health. I was having lots of heart burn, because of my eating and now, just two weeks of "clean eating", it's gone!
The sacrifices we have to make for a healthier life may seem hard to bare but it's worth doing it.

I really want this change, I need this change for my life's sake! I want to be an example of health to my family, friends and in a near future; patients. So, the time to act is now.

It's NEVER to late to be who we want to be.

I will make a video if I can this week. Wish me luck for this 3rd week. I'm going to do my best. O know I can!!!

The scale can be your friend.

Many of us hate the scale. "It doesn't reflect my hard work". Well, it's not that the scale doesn't reflect our hard work. If you just start losing weight, the scale works perfectly! It show good losses. But after a while it decrease the loss and we get frustrate and we quit.

Well, the scale is not the one to blame. Our bodies get use to the same thing, after a while and we need to switch things around and kind give it a shock. Like if you have been eating the same calories and exercise, try to increase good carbs and step up on the cardio. Sometimes these simple things work.
I'm enjoying the scale for now. This week I lost 7.5 lbs. I know, it's a great loss BUT, the first week is always good. We lose the water and sodium we have been holding on from those terrible foods, we use to eat. I'm excited to keep weighing every week and see results.

Results that will only come, IF I follow the plan, make the sacrifices and work hard for it. It's so hard to lose couple pounds. I keep asking myself, how can I throw away the hard work. It's like buying something at the store, and never wearing it. I need to appreciate more my losses, so I can have the conscious mind to not gain.

Almost over week #1 - Low carb plan.

It's almost over the end of week #1. I have 3 more weeks to go on this first mini goal. I do question myself how strong can I be this time and sounds like I'm an alcoholic. Well, my trainer said that we are addicted to carbs, sugar and other things just like alcohol and drugs.
The things is; I need to re-think the way I eat and all the foods that enter my body. I have to question them. Are they good nutrients or just junk?

This first week is crucial for me to keep focus and strong on my goal. I have a long way to go and I have to break this long miles in yards, so I can succeed.
I have all the support I need, I have the desire, I have the tools and research and now, I finally got the commitment to make this real. I've said many times, I can do it. But I failed. Why is now different? Because I'm tired and I'm getting old. My body does not respond the same way it did when I was 25. My metabolism have changed and all this extra fat I'm carrying is finally really bothering to the core.
It's time to change. In order to make this work, I'm also reaching for help. I'm currently with a therapist who specializes to work with people with weigh issues. Under weight or over weight, and I believe this is what I needed all this time, to get to bottom of this obesity. I will get into details of the process in a video which I plan to record soon. I'm also reading a book about emotional eating, which is very interesting. I will give details of it next week when I'm a bit further in the book. I will weigh in on Monday, wish me luck.

It's all good...

In the beginning, everything is great. If you are in a new relationship, things are great and exciting. A re-start of a weight loss journey is the same way. So, I'm trying to be proactive and plan things ahead. Here is tomorrow main meals.

It's a brand new day!

October is here, a new season, a new day, a new commitment.

Yes, I know I have been here before but remember what I said once?? Never give up! So, here we go again. I deleted all my old entries, because I want to start this fresh. So, here is a re-cap of my weight loss life style.

I started "vlogging" in Aug 2008 on youTube and my start weight was 257lbs. Man,... those were great weight loss days. Since then I went up and down the road and I re-started several times. in 2009 I was up and down the 250-260's but in 2010 things went down hill. I went from the 270's to the 300's. Yes 300's! I know, it's disappointing. Maybe because I feel in love and thought cooking and going out for dinner wouldn't be too bad but it was!!

I know I'm not alone on this journey of sacrifices and hard work, but once and for all I want be done with it. There are more to my obesity than just the desire to eat. I don't really binge, I don't eat too much sweets but I have my moments of emotional eating and that's what screw things up. I active but not like I was before. I will ride my bike or walk some good miles but not on a daily basis. Last April I started with a trainer and I lost good 15lbs but... after I stopped, I went up again. It's frustrating not controlling your own life. But now, i have a plan.

I have a new therapist which is working wonders, because we are focusing on the reasons why I am eating and it's going really well.
I have a new eating plan, low carb hardcore for couple months, just to jump start my weight loss. After that I will still be on low calories meals. Probably between 1500-1800 depending on my workouts.

So, this is it for now. I am excited like every start of things. I'm hopeful and optimistic. I know I can do it, because I have done it before. It's now a matter of time and commitment of my part to keep following the plan!

My goal is to r each the 250's by spring. It's doable. All I need to do is work for it.